Friday, March 22, 2013

The Most Beautiful Baby Bump Story

Get the tissues ready ladies...

http://shine.yahoo.com/love-sex/the-most-honest--beautiful--heartbreaking-celebrity-baby-bump-photo-ever-185947047.html
By Jessica Ferri 3/21/2013



It's Thursday afternoon, and I'm sitting at my desk, crying over Kristen Bell's baby bump.


On Wednesday Dax Shepard posted an essay on his Tumblr about his father, who recently passed away from cancer. At the end of the post, he shares a photo of his father with his hand on the belly of Shepard’s pregnant wife, Kirsten Bell.

“She lifted her shirt up and he put his hand on her swollen stomach. He left it there for the better part of an hour. He was smiling from ear to ear, sitting contently, unable to put together a sentence, but still capable of connecting to the new family member we were creating.”

Sadly, Shepard’s father didn’t get to see the birth—he passed away on December 31. “But that didn’t get in the way of him meeting the new baby,” Shepard writes. “It was an emotional and triumphant moment. One I will never forget. If I live to be a thousand, I will still be in debt to my wife for giving him that one last thrill.”

And I'm in debt to Dax Shepard for sharing such an unusually honest and moving portrait of a real, complex relationship. Seriously, someone pass the tissues.

Shepard’s father was a recovering alcoholic and spent 25 years in Alcoholics Anonymous. As a result he “accumulated the most colorful, caring group of friends you’d ever want to see,” and when Shepard struggled to travel between his work commitments in L.A. and his father in Detroit, his dad “was never alone. Not for one second.”

The two men weren’t always close, but his diagnosis had brought them together. “We had taken on this cancer project together. He chose me to deal with all the doctors and creditors and landlords. It was the only project we ever teamed up on. We never built a tree house or a soapbox derby car together, but you would have never known it by watching us tear through chemo decisions and radiation plans. We were two great minds with one single thought: get into the end zone gracefully.”

As his health deteriorates, Shepard writes that his father never lost his spirit, chowing down on his favorite foods, “he was like a perpetually stoned, pregnant woman,” and when he did lose his appetite, he flirted with the nurse when she inserted his catheter. “Here was a man, a bona-fide food addict, who had lost his will to eat. He couldn’t walk, and up until then, had stopped talking. But here he was . . . ready to party. It was his only vital sign still thriving. It was indomitable; impervious to the suite of diseases ravaging his body.”
In the end, Shepard's father passed away without pain. “Our first project together was a total success. My only regret is that we didn’t take on more together.”

/end story

Ugly crying yet? This story touched me for so many reasons, but I think one of the reasons is because of my relationship with my own dad. He was married before and has three children from that marriage (in fact he is going to be a Great-Grandfather soon)! My mom is turning 60 this year, but my dad is already 72. I used to have nightmares that he wouldn't be around to walk me down the aisle. Now I fear he will never meet his grandchildren from me. My mom is one of my best friends but my dad holds a very special place in my heart. These pictures from my wedding speak for themselves about us. I love him so much.


Telling my dad how much I love him at the end of our father daughter dance My Little Girl - Tim McGraw



Sunday, March 17, 2013

CD12 and already 3dpo

So I was really hoping that temp spike on CD10 was a fluke but I guess not. My temp this morning makes it offish...our official timing for this cycle is 0-1. I was really, really hoping for more days to give us a greater chance of a 2013 baby. But TTC doesn't work like that.


Friday, March 15, 2013

Did I really O on CD9?!? Rawrrrr

So the hubs left for Canada yesterday morning. We did get some sex in late Wednesday night because he was leaving earlier than I thought Thursday so I didn't know if we would have time. I didn't really expected it to matter much and figured we would really get down business when he comes back Sunday. BUTTTTTT

Last night I got this....


And today my temp did this...


WTF!!!!!

I really hope my body geared up to O then didn't and we still have more time. I guess I'll have to wait and see what my temps do over the next couple of days.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

The FW is upon us...

This is going to be a very exciting post so brace yourselves.

Today is CD7, I just stopped spotting today and I already have watery CM. I am praying that O later than normal this cycle since DH is going out of town Thurs-Sun. I don't mind having a normal/shortish cycle but I just finished AF and it is all down to bizness right away. Sigh....

I made a sex schedule for us. Sounds fun and super sexy right? Right?

Tonight, Thursday morning before he leaves, Sunday late night when gets back, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday.  I'm praying I O on CD14 or 15 this cycle. Praying hard.

I don't feel good about Cycle #9 and it hasn't really even started yet. In my head I keep thinking this is the last cycle where my EDD would be in 2013. The thought of being out for 2013 is just kinda depressing.

We keep on trucking....

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Fuck This

Went from 15dpo to AF...oh hai Cycle #9 so disregard my last post. I mean you can read it, but it is pretty boring anyway. So is this one though ::shrug::

I'm such a slacker!

Why do I even have this blog? I ain't even be writing these days!

So what is going on with me you wonder:

15dpo no AF yet but I feel like I'm just waiting for her to show up today or tomorrow. I tested at 12dpo but got a BFN and haven't tested since. Trying to stay positive and trying not to get discouraged but it is getting harder and harder as cycles pass me by. I'm also nervous about starting cycle #9 because DH is going to ANOTHER curling tournament next weekend and we could potentially miss my FW. I actually considered going but it is in Canada so no bueno.

Life goes on....

School has been kicking my ass this semester. We are on a trimester schedule so I only have about a month or so left before I'm done and I can.not.wait. After that is it just time to study for the comprehensive exams which take place in June. In a Ph.D. program you complete 30 credits and then must take 2 comprehensive exams to move forward. One is in theory and the other is a combination of research and statistics. Each is approximately 8 hours long. Good times! BUT after that (if I pass) I go on to take maybe one or two more classes depending on how many of my Master's credits my dissertation committee will let me transfer, and these classes will be in my specialty area. From there I defend my dissertation topic and take one more comprehensive exam in my specialty. Then I will officially be ABD (all by dissertation). Whewwww but I am moving along at a good pace and already have ideas in place for my dissertation. I will be focusing primarily on sexual offenders and recidivism (re-arrest rates), but I still have to funnel it down.

Okay if you actually read that incredibly boring paragraph I am flashing my boobies for you!

I want to give an extra special thank you to an amazing bumpie friend who sent me a care package over the weekend. It was so incredibly sweet and filled with so many thoughtful things. I will be PIPing that shit on here to brag a little more :)